Om Shanti

Again, I borrowed this blog’s title from Seal’s song, “Crazy”

Lately I have been thinking of doing things that I don’t normally do. I’m a very laid back person and can be pleased by the simplest things even just food. I enjoy eating. However, when I don’t feel too good or when something’s upsetting me, I lose my appetite. These past few days, things have changed I’ve come up with things that I wanted to do differently.

Despite the cost of gas, I came up with the idea of driving far away at night. Driving by myself. Which is quite a risky thing to do when you are doing it at night especially. I would want to find a place where I could just read a book any book, and chill. My ideal place would be at the beach but there no longer are safe and nice beaches here you can get into for free unless of course you know the owner.

Another idea that I came up with was do something drastic to my hair.. I was thinking about adding a lot layers and having my hair highlighted. I was even on the net once looking for funky hairstyles and the pictures I saw were really funky ones and rather extreme. The type that would probably give me the attention I so do not need.

The most recent idea I came up with is getting some body part pierced. I’m not thinking about anything outrageous and I’m not going as far as having my eyebrow pierced or my tongue for that matter.

Then, some things occured to me almost instantly after I came up with these ideas. First of all with the driving around town.. I am so freaking lazy when it comes to going out. All I really want is to stay home and sleep and ocassionally watch dvds or surf or come up again with ideas that won’t materialize. Then about doing something drastic to my hair. I don’t want attention. Not that kind at least. And most of all, I just want to look nice most of the time. Look simple and neat And about my most recent idea, I haven’t really given it much thought.. I think I can talk my mom into it hehehe. I can’t say this is some sort of mid-life crisis coz really I’m still about to begin my life and I’m tired of making plans that are always affected by things I have no control over. This is no mid-life crisis, am I having some sort of syndrome here? I just want to change something and do stuff that I have control over, like my hair

But then again all i did was have my split ends cut off. One-length, have my bangs trimmed was all I told the hairdresser.